It is strange. I've been thinking about how different things were when Martha was here. The more she talks about it, the more I think. It was quite different. Of course we had our time together, but even when we were separate I felt better about life and who I was.
In the meantime, everything's gone haywire. We've both changed in ways. Two years is a long time. I think I have more stable moods now. The medication I took for a few months did probably reintroduce some absent chemicals, which I'm now attempting to carry over. I think it helped... as much as I disliked the side effects, I could see myself taking further medication for a similar period of time in the future - just to realign some energies. Not to overdo it of course, but just until it feels like enough.
But yes, we have changed. We are both wanting a return to things as they were before (obviously without the rednecks). As I have said through other channels, if we keep open to possibilities, I think we can experience even more than we expect. I think with the changes in ourselves and the planet in the past two years, we should really be excited. Of course George will always have an ear for the details of Martha's voyage... there is much in her to repair. Much in both of us. But despite the trials, there is a calm strength burning underneath. How else have we made it this far?
The trick will be to activate those powers. When we discover how to do that, and keep it burning steady, we will really have something. I think we're onto something here, and I don't think we even have to try very hard.
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