It wasn't the medication

So Martha has yet to explain last week's remarks (actually she did do some explaining previous to my reading the post). She seems to be taking a page from her past and just ignoring the whole thing. I suppose I could have brought it up when we talked on the phone, but I expect people to apologize on their own without prompting.

Not that an apology is necessary. She possibly doesn't think she's said anything wrong. That would be a page of her past as well. I knew to expect this from her... IF she felt she had done nothing wrong, then she would rather avoid discomfort. Even when she knew I was upset. And she never liked to apologize. She feels she is seldom wrong. I think this comes from putting a great deal of care into her words. She doesn't speak or write things that aren't well thought-out. Well, at least she doesn't on important matters. Still, thinking things out doesn't exempt someone from being wrong, or hurting feelings.

And that's the whole matter. It wasn't that she was wrong, but what she said in the post was harmful. Of course I know she didn't intend it to be, although it did come across as callous. She was simply being pragmatic by placing me in a risk category... I am a risk. I can't be trusted apparently. After all, I don't know how many times I've told her things I would do and then not done them.

I'm still angry about how she compared her moving to England to my desire to move to Colorado. As if I was some stupid Wichita person that couldn't even make it to the next closest state.

I wasn't going to write about this. I was going to let it go for now, but after talking with her as if nothing has happened, I had to say something.

I try to be supportive. Supportive and patient. I share those American values with Martha, and she often returns them. Maybe she's been around English people too long. Marium in particular. I understand her desires to be pragmatic and realistic. But to say that your best friend can't be trusted to follow through with one of the most important things in both our lives...

I am still hurting over this. Some would say the truth hurts.. but I don't think we are such as that...